Saturday, March 10, 2012

Overdue Updates

The previously referred to "Drastic Decision"
My ex who had been struggling for over a year with a similar job (or jobless) situation before I got laid off, found a job he couldn't refuse finally but it involved him moving to Utah. He made the tough decision to take it and move. Meanwhile in the months that followed, my fiance and I were struggling with the exorbitant living expenses of California. Applying to any and every job without so much as a "Thank you for applying, but...". My growing annoyance with California coupled with my fiance's flat out hatred of it, quickly approached a fever pitch of frustration and desperation. That combined with the increasingly hard time the kids and my ex were having not being able to see each other, made for a huge decision I NEVER thought I'd actually make let alone consider as a possibility. We picked up and moved to Utah as well. With no jobs lined up and no family out here in case we failed miserably. Yikes.

If it's not THE scariest thing I've ever done, then it's an extremely close second. And I could list all the reasons I'm glad we did this (as well as a couple reasons I couldn't have predicted would make me regret it in a way), but that's a post for another day. For now, we're here, we're happy with it, and we're managing for the moment on a day by day basis.

On to newer better things
My involvement with GoDaddy is now over and GlassSlipperCreatons.com is no more. I did do some homework before trying them out, and I saw the good and the bad but the price seemed so good, I guess it was just something I had to learn the hard way. I'm now completely convinced that the good reviews I saw and heard, were fake or paid for. How a company can get good reviews when they reel you in with one price, end up charging you a little more, spam you to death weekly for the 3 whole months preceding your renewal date, and then double your original price to renew is beyond me. And all that was just with a simple domain registration package, I have no idea what their hosting is like but I shudder to think. And I've always found the Danica Patrick marketing campaign, unfunny, unimaginative, and even though I'm FAR from being a feminist(they helped kill chivalry dontcha know), cliche in a totally sexist way. I've been kinda hating myself for rewarding such tripe with my business lol. Anyway, it's done and I'll never be tempted with bogus promotions to stray again.

Though the temporary construction page hasn't been changed, I'm now the owner of GlassSlipperDigital.com. I went back to my broker of choice, InterXstream, and they took care of everything for me for half the price that GoDaddy wanted to renew me for. I decided to dump the original name rather than go through the whole transfer process because I decided to make the switch at the last minute, literally. I canceled the day it was scheduled to automatically charge my credit card and placed the order with IXS in the same breath. I don't regret it, I was never completely happy with the "creations" part of the name and I hadn't done a damned thing with the site yet so it ended up being the perfect time to make the change. It'll still probably be a while before I do anything with it but at least it's there when I'm ready for it and I feel MUCH better about whom I'm paying for it.

Projects
I've decided to use my fiance's music blog as my first guinea pig on my quest to become a self taught web designer. I started last year by giving him a new logo for the page. He wanted a crest for his name Lunar Storm so I made him one with a stained glass window feel to it. It came out pretty cool but I will have to post pictures later because we have places to go today and I think everyone's waiting on me at this point lol. I've taken the original crest logo that I created and added scrolls and swords to it, making it probably the biggest craziest masthead I've ever created. Even though I'm extremely proud of the fact that I created every piece from scratch, the layout as a whole is proving to be kind of an ambitious undertaking that's going to take a lot longer than I anticipated to finish.

The graphics are the easy part. The challenge it seems, is the rest. Things have changed A LOT since the days when I designed layouts for my old and EXTREMELY outdated LiveJournal. That was actually really easy once I knew what I needed to put and where, from their style system. But you have to pay to have as much control over your blog layout as I did, AND I want to learn how to do this on my own sites, not a commercial one. I figured all this out when I got to the point in my designing, when I wanted to see how all the different slices were going to fit together on a live web page. I figured out some design changes I needed to make for the better, and that I have A LOT to learn outside of HTML and CSS. I looked very briefly into WordPress and that's where the feeling of being in over my head crept in. It's time to learn some new shit. Unfortunately, time hasn't been on my side lately since I just recently started working full time again. After 16 months, I think my body is taking it's sweet time in getting back into the habit. I'm hoping to adjust again soon because I haven't had the energy to do anything after work since I started. And it's not even a hard back breaking job lol. Maybe I'm just getting old?

And the obvious
I changed the name of this blog...because I felt like it and it was just time.

I think that's enough for now and it's time to go anyways. So as my 10 year old would say, late.

Saturday, June 25, 2011

The perpetual unknown...

I haven't updated in a few months and as much as I wish I could say so much has happened, I can't.  Nothing has happened. Nothing really good anyway.

The bad...
I've applied for damn near every job on this side of the SFV that I totally qualified for, and a fair bit that I only marginally qualified for.  I've applied for retail jobs.  I've checked in with the temp agencies to make sure they haven't forgotten about me. Out of pure desperation, I've even applied for cleaning jobs--one at Molly Maid and another at an apartment complex resetting furnished apartments between tenants. I've spammed my resume all over the place and I've lost track of how many profiles I've set up on job search sites.  Enough to become a victim of identity theft soon to be sure.  My truck lost a caliper bolt and there's metal showing on one of the front tires so it's been parked. But even if that stuff were fixed, because of the whole budget mess, I haven't been able to apply for the CAP program as the services were suspended pending budget resolution.  My check engine light is on which is an automatic fail for smog. The program is set to start back up in July but my tags expire next Saturday so now I have to go pay for an extension.  And the best yet, my tax refund cushion, is basically gone.  Every time I wrote the rent check, it ate away a chunk that could not be replenished with neither my mine nor my fiance's UI, or my ex's child support payments.

The good...
I've still been plugging away at the whole web design thing...but I'm a long way off from even having a portfolio of charity work put together, let alone making any money at it.  We're not in danger of eviction...but we'll have to start paying the rent late within a few months as the money dwindles further. And that will cost an extra $60 a month we already don't have. It's a miracle I'm getting any sleep at night when even the good points have a "but" in them.

But speaking of sleep, I went insomniac for about a solid week over a drastic decision that I'm sincerely hoping will be the solution to all this, this...I don't even know what to call it...this mire of crushing hopelessness and calamity we've been stuck in? I've actually been thinking of this option for quite a while now but always dismissed it as insane and generally bad all around.  I thought my reasons for not considering it, were solid at the time, but I hit a wall a few weeks ago.  I reached and exceeded my limit for anxiety, stress, and flat out fear when I couldn't even get the Molly Maid job.  The thought that I couldn't even get paid to do something I have to do at home for free was enough to break me down completely.  I began questioning my reasons and found that they were less solid and more sentimental.

Anybody who knows me, knows sentimentality is one of my most self-crippling traits.  This would definitely not be the first time I've allowed a bad situation to continue because of an attachment to some arbitrary aspect that was nearly meaningless to others.  And in this case, I have definitely been projecting my sentimentality onto others.  Since giving voice to the option, I've come to find out that I'm the only one who thought it was insane and bad. Which only served to make me question my reasons more and come to terms with the fact that we are gonna do this shit. It has evolved and crossed over from hypothetical-research-land to absolute-planning-ville. The only people who don't like it, have not been able to provide any solid reasons why...only sentimental ones.

I'm hesitant to say what it is (though I'm sure it's fairly obvious) for goofy superstitious reasons.  It just seems like every hope I've posted about in this blog has been mercilessly crushed by some odd obstacle that has turned up just to thwart me.  When I feel I can say more, I will.  For now, the blog hiatus will most likely continue as I won't have much time for playing with makeup or Photoshop.  I just hope I haven't tempted anything by saying as much as I have, to incur the wrath of the Jinx.  This is too major and the contingency plan, should this one fail, is THE last thing I want to do...again.

Friday, March 11, 2011

My Scion Rock Fest 2011 look & UD Eyeshadow Primer Potion Review/lovefest...

First of all, please forgive the HORRIBLE picture quality but I had to share this look because it looked so neat...it's too bad the picture didn't do it justice =/

This year, we went to the Scion Rock Fest in Pomona (aka Scion A/V Metal).  Never heard of it before but my fiance's brother really wanted to go so we decided to check it out.  I pretty much left my metal days behind in high school so I wasn't altogether looking forward to going but in the end, it was a fun time.  

Dressing up was definitely fun because I'd had a cut up Pantera t-shirt sitting in my closet for years and no place to wear it to until Saturday.  Unfortunately, I forgot to take pictures of the outfit and the makeup early BECAUSE I am the type of goober who always has a camera phone and a regular camera in her purse, but rarely remembers to use either of them.  I could kick myself too because I really wanted to get a pic of me and my hubby at the festival but I forgot to do that too, dumb.  The festival was an ALL day thing so by the time I got around to taking at least 1 picture, it was at 2am, with an iPhone, and literally about 5 minutes before I passed out into a mild coma.  And here it is...



I did what I could to bring out the colors but this is the best it's going to get for now. For anybody interested, the product list is as follows:

Face
Foundation: Bare Minerals 2G Golden Medium Matte
MAC Blush: Coppertone and Peaches
Highlight: NARS Illuminator in Orgasm
All over: MAC Fix+ Spray

Eyes
Primer: Urban Decay Eyeshadow Primer Potion
MAC Pigment:  Golden Lemon
MAC ES: Vanilla, Saddle, Goldenrod, Gesso, and Carbon
Urban Decay 24/7 eyeliners: Zero, Bourbon, and Honey
MAC Fluidline gel liner: Blacktrack
Lashes: MAC Prep+Prime Lash, Blinc tube mascara

Lips
Softlips Vanilla chapstick...which they made me throw away at the Fox Theatre so I'm glad I didn't bring anything expensive.

On to the review/lovefest.  Like I said at the beginning of the post, this picture was taken around 2am AFTER spending nearly the entire day outside, queueing in the sun and walking from venue to venue. Not to mention sweating inside the dank stuffy venues themselves.  I finsihed applying my makeup at noon and we didn't get home till after 1am.  Bad picture quality aside, there was little to no fading, no greasy creasing, and no smudging.  I was so exhausted I didn't even wash my face before bed (yuck I know), and most of the eyeshadow was still in place when I woke up late the next day.  If you need any more proof that Urban Decay's Eyeshadow Primer Potion is everything they claim it is, then I don't know what to tell you.  

I'm off, errands await.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Photoshop frenzy...

I'm definitely on a photoshop kick right now that I've decided to step back from the job search for a minute.  I had to, it was driving me out of my mind.  The money situation is not quite so desperate yet that I'm ready to just go find a minimum wage job wherever they'll take me...but I was feeling desperate enough to just have a job at all, that I almost did exactly that.  I'm not ready to resort to my last resort yet so I'm taking a break and clearing my head with some solid photoshop practice. 

Here's another tutorial I started last week and just got around to finishing yesterday.  Altogether, it didn't take very long at all but it was a busy weekend and then of course I got sidetracked with the road cone from the previous post.  Here's what I got by following the pshero tutorial:

Modern 3D Text Effect ...



It was one of the better written tutorials I've tried.  Clear, understandable, and very noob friendly. It's spot on DesignModo.com's  Fresh & Impressive Collection of Photoshop Tutorials, is well deserved.  And it gave me a chance to play with Illustrator a little bit as well which I've admittedly been a little intimidated by for a long time and often shied away from in the past.  I will master it eventually but I haven't had the best experiences with Illustrator tutorials in the past so I became pretty unmotivated to spend what little free time I had, searching for good ones.  Well the days still aren't long enough but I definitely have more time than I did while employed so consider me now motivated hehe.  Anyway, this link is definitely going in the Illustrator folder for further future reference.

I may or may not have another makeup look post later...it depends on how clear the picture came out.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

A little facelift for my neglected domain...

I've had my domain for years though I've never done a thing with it. Well nothing outside of temporary storage and a little image hosting for a LiveJournal blog I haven't touched in years that is.  I had meant to just buy a domain name but didn't realize at the time that buying a hosting package with it, was not a requirement.  I found out otherwise not long after but since I wasn't doing anything with it, I never bothered to shop around for a better deal.  Until last Friday.

After 5 or so odd years of overpaying for a tiny amount of space, I've finally moved my site.    I decided to try out HostGator.com.  They charge about the same as I was paying before but now I have unlimited space as opposed to slightly under 1GB.  And the CPanel has a lot more noob friendly tools in it.  I'm sure it was only because I really didn't have a website to speak of that the move happened lighting fast.  They said it would take 24-48 hours but the switch was immediate as soon as I updated the nameservers and uploaded my sad little "under construction" index file haha.  I can't believe I neglected it so long...couldn't even bother to put up a proper temporary page, bad bad Mars.

Anyways, it was such a smooth and satisfying experience, I went ahead and registered another domain for my future (hopefully not fantasy) career in web/graphic design and/or animation production company.  I figured it would keep me motivated to keep practicing on my own till I can afford to go back to school, during this crappy time of rejection and let downs.  I guess it worked at least a little because as soon as the sites were up and running, I started creating a temporary page for both.

I found this pretty cool tutorial on PSD Tuts+ for a road cone.  It can be found at Illustrate a Traffic Cone Icon in Photoshop.  Apparently it was originally published in Czech so the translation is a tiny bit shaky at times but still pretty understandable.  And beginners beware...you definitely have to fill in a few blanks yourself to achieve some of the differences you'll notice in the screen caps between one step and the next that are not explained or even referred to at all.  But that turned out to be a good thing because it challenged me and I ended up learning some badass tricks I've never heard of before.

This is what I came up with...





And then here are screencaps of  the two SUPER quick temporary pages I literally threw together yesterday, showcasing my shiny new road cone...





 I was kind of in a hurry because it was getting close to the time I usually pick up my kids, so I just did some simple text with a drop shadow.  Then I did a basic gradient to chop and repeat vertically with CSS, and added a blueish back light that matched the text and background palette. It didn't make sense to me to use purple (or any other color that had nothing to do with the general design) like the tutorial had suggested, hence the blue.  Then I uploaded the separate parts, and coded them all back together again.  The screencaps are a bit on the wide side because I have a wide screen monitor and I prefer a maximized window for my browser.  I set the body's background color to match the light blue in the gradient so there would be a seamless background fill on maximized setups like mine... I hate empty whitespace around sites.

It's been a REALLY long time so I had to refer back to W3Schools for a couple syntax brain farts hehe ;).  And in retrospect, I probably should have reversed the gradient...at least I think so but only because of the gloss on the cone, but I just didn't like the way it looked that way when I tried it.  This is all temporary anyway, and MOST importantly, a learning experience.  I will get around to finding a comprehensive light source tutorial eventually, right now it's all about honing what I already know and challenging myself to take on the tools I have struggled with in the past, like the pen tool...you've bested me before punk, but it's on now ;).

That's all for now, the dishes and laundry await...oh joy of joys.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Well that didn't last long...

...keeping up with this blog I mean.  My hopes, plans, intentions for a new career and a fresh start, have been on hold due to circumstances and obstacles outside of my realm of control.  I have been on a roller coaster of stress, renewed optimism, hard let downs, weight gain, frantic desperation, lather-rinse-repeat for the last 5 months exactly today. As a result, I have not felt like blogging much of anything.  Can you blame me?

I've only just within this past week, begun to creep out from under my rock and do little things like check my months old twitter messages and maybe let one or two people know I'm still alive.  When things go wrong in my world, I tend to go on social lock-down.  It's sort of involuntary and difficult to break out of once in.  I log out of everything and just disappear for a while.  I guess it's my coping mechanism *shrugs*.

In the meantime, I've gotten quite tired of spending hours upon hours EVERY single morning combing job postings for jobs I don't-really-want-but-feel-desperate-enough-to-apply-for-despite-only-partially-fitting-the-qualifications, and do something conducive to my on-hold-indefinitely-but-still-not-given-up-entirely hopes of breaking into graphic/web design sometime in the next decade.  I've decided to hit the tutorials at least a couple times a week and take a break from my demoralizing and fruitless search.  If I don't, I'll go mad.

Today, I did a tutorial by graphic designer, Tyler Denis, listed by DesignModo.com as one of  many in a Fresh & Impressive Collection of Photoshop Tutorials.

Funky Retro Wavy Text Effect

I hadn't eaten breakfast yet and I was waiting for a call so I was too distracted to put my own spin on the text/design and just ended up following the directions word for word with the exception of the font (because I didn't feel like downloading it right then).  Here's what I came up with...






That's all for today.  I'll be back, whenever the hell I feel like it I suppose =)

Monday, October 25, 2010

The Blahs

I don't know what it is about getting a late start to the day that just throws everything totally off.  I woke up late, the kids only just barely made it to school.  Then I stopped to eat and wait for the bank to open since I got my first unemployment check over the weekend.  I came back home and haven't done much since.

With the recent absence of the 11 year old routine of getting up and going to work on the other side of the valley every morning, I've developed a new routine over the past 3 weeks.  By now I've had my tea, breakfast, the dishes washed, the bed made, emails checked, my Farmville farmed, and I've already been at Project Purge (and I know I still haven't explained, I was going to today but I really must get off the computer and get to the doing before the day is over) for at least a half hour.  But here it is, lunch time, my fiance will be home from work soon, and I haven't even had my morning tea yet.

I'm going to go ahead and blame it on this nutty wind we're having today...if for no other reason than because the display and lights, on my cable box and router were flashing and blinking in an extremely weird twitchy way when I got home from the bank.  Every thing else was ok but the tv said there was some sort of power outage.  I think I'm having a bit of a power outage today too...too bad I don't have a reboot procedure like they do.  Hmmmmn I wonder if I have the tea now, will it help?

Eh, tomorrow will be better. I hope.