It's been 10 days now and I'm still not quite used to this. Last night I had a weird dream that I was still sneaking into work. I managed to hoard reports and things off my desk that I was responsible for, in a back store room. Nobody knew I was in there and I was afraid to come out lest someone should see me and pity me. And then suddenly I gathered my courage and ran out the door leaving it all behind. It felt pretty liberating in the dream but when I woke up, I felt disturbed that I should still over a week later, be having dreams about it. But then again, 11 years is a damned long time to work somewhere and there were several people I didn't get a chance to say goodbye to, so I guess it's not so abnormal that I haven't completely emotionally let go of that place or my former duties there. And it's just weird altogether to be home and actually have time on my hands...I haven't taken a proper vacation in, ever. I've had a week off to go visit family in Miami during the holidays before, but I don't count that because it's always with my parents, the kids, and about 10 times the stress I normally had staying home. Plus, it's been like 4 years since the last time. I've never been able to take off and just go somewhere pretty to disconnect for a week. The closest I've come to that is ComicCon '07 & '08 and that's only because the kids didn't go with me. This feels like I'm on maternity leave again but I'm having a hard time wrapping my mind around the fact that I'm not going back in a couple months this time. That and, I'm definitely not pregnant right now haha.
It's just odd and I'm trying to stay busy while struggling to get used to this abstract concept of "free time". I'm wondering when the novelty will wear off. Last week, I obsessively cleaned my kitchen and the boys' bedroom. This week I plan on tackling some still unpacked boxes that I never got around to since my move in March, my fiance's stuff which I also still haven't gotten around to finding a place for since August, and my desk which is as always, a general disaster area. I'm definitely taking some hard earned me time to sort out all the crap that I never got around to doing while I had a job, so that I can actually do the things I enjoy like reading, crafts, graphics, etc, guilt free. It wasn't completely guilt free yet because there are many other things that still need doing before I'm satisfied with the state of my home but, I played with my make up last night and did a pretty dark purple look using mostly MAC pigments. I took pictures but I don't have time to see if any of them are usable right now so that will be a post for later.
In the meantime, not much else of note has happened yet. I received my first continued claim form...it's not to be mailed back until the 17th which means I probably won't see my first UI check till the end of next week, oh joy. I still haven't received my severance check yet so I'll have to make a phone call if it doesn't come by tomorrow since the "...before the 8th day..." period since I signed the agreement has officially lapsed. I did my mandatory registration with CalJobs and found a perfect graphic design internship but I don't meet the qualifications because even though I'm enrolled in Art School, I'm not currently taking any classes and I can't take any classes until I find out whether it puts my UI at risk or not to do so. Plus, I'm familiar with Photoshop but Illustrator is still weird to me. I have it but I haven't played with it much and the internship stated experience with it as a requirement...right now I'm not even all that confident in my Photoshop skills since I haven't touched it in 3 years. I need to get this place cleaned up so I can give myself a thorough refresher on everything before claiming to have experience with any of it on an actual job/internship interview.
Aaaaaaaand that's it I think. I'll be back to babble some more when something actually happens. Or when I'm feeling chatty again, whichever comes first hehe. I'll also finish setting up my blogger profile and arranging things as I have time...it's driving me nuts not having it all customized already haha.
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